Wednesday, 9 June 2010

A child's view.

"Do you know why kids get type 1 diabetes, Mum? So that they can learn to protect themselves, and appreciate the value of their life. Other people aren't grateful to live like people with type 1 diabetes." 

This was posted on Facebook on Dear Diabetes. I thought it was so inspirational and beautiful. It really makes you think how no matter how hard life gets children always know how to make it better. To think and believe that line is fantastic. Diabetes, Type 1 or Type 2, is bad and difficult to deal with at the best of times, but for a child it is even harder. I was 15 when I was diagnosed and I struggled to come to terms with the diagnosis. I wish I had the mindset of this kid to think that way.
Life is something to treasure and to enjoy. We have diabetes, so what! We are amazing people who should appreciate that we have a life, we can enjoy the finer things in life. We have freedom - ok so we have to stop every now and then to test our blood or take insulin or boost our sugar levels. We have to go for check ups regularly but that is only so we can keep living a good life. Yes there will be problems in the future but there is also hope.
There are always new advances in technology and medication and at least diabetes can be treated. There are worse things out there that happen to people and there are better things to. Diabetes is going to get us all down at some point but I hope when it does we can all see it isn't the end of the world and it will get better.

Thank you to Dear Diabetes for letting me quote the status. 

Tuesday, 8 June 2010

I'm back on track.

I'm back on track now.
 I've got my diabetes back under control. I'm taking my insulin again like I should be, testing my blood again like I should be.I had my first hypo in ages the other day. OH MY GOD I'd forgotten how awful they make you feel for ages after. My levels are still sitting a bit too high for my liking but I'm getting them lower slowly.

I hate diabetes. I hate the fact it has a massive impact on your life, no matter if you think it doesn't , it does! I hate the fact I'm constantly worrying about my levels, the damage I'm doing to my body, the future and complications if I get pregnant , or seriously ill.  I hate injecting myself everyday, a minimum of 4 times a day. I hate testing my blood. I hate the disruption diabetes causes, be it just because I'm stopping to inject or test my blood or because I'm having a hypo I need to treat. I hope one day there is a cure for diabetes. I know there are worse illnesses/diseases etc but for me, right now, this is bad! I'm not asking for sympathy or anything of that sort, just for some understanding and support. I hope I can give other people support too.


I don't know what caused me to slip and stop doing what I should but I'm ashamed at my self for it.

I'm still trying to loose weight, eat better, exercise more.
Thanks to my work for Avon I'm getting out more and its really boosting my confidence.
I'm still planning away for my wedding. Struggling with the saving though.